and nothin' else matters, happy new year!

let's give the year 2008 a BIG hug, kiss 'her' goodbye and walk 'her' to the door,

and wish that her majesty 2009 is a much giving and a less cruel lady

~ Memoria de mis putas tristes

I happen to be a HUGE 'Gabriel Garcia Marquez' fan, the Colombian genius,

so you might be hearing about him a lot, so bare with me :)
his writings can't be described but beautiful, my favorite is 'love in the time of cholera'

'ذاكرة غانياتي الحزينات ' was his last published novel, about 103 pages

there's a possibility that you might hate it, umm.. be 'nauseated' by it may be,

but if you understood the man in the novel,

where he comes from and get his empty, lonely life you might like it,

like I did, well I actually loved it,

but hey you can like it all you want :)

it's a sad story, filled with beautiful lines, small details,

written in a profound language

sometimes I think Marquez was talking about himself, as an older man,

how he and everythingelse around him changed,

I read the book in Arabic, since I won't be reading the original any time sooner

it was first published in 2004, and tbh, I really enjoyed every single page I read

it made e think about a lot of things, related to life, humans, age?

anyways, I chose this piece

the writer here talks through the main character, and

describes how the simplest things can get missed up while ageing

في العقد الخامس بدأت أتخيّل ما هي الشيخوخة, عندما انتبهت الى أولى فجوات الذاكرة. كنت أذرع البيت بحثاً عن النظارة, ثم أكتشف أنني أضعها على عيني, أو أدخل بها تحت مرشة الاستحمام, أو أضع نظارة القراءة دون أن أنزع نظارة بُعد النظر. و في أحد الأيام تناولت الفطور مرتين, لأنني نسيت المرة الأولى منهما; و تعلمت التعرف إلى ضيق أصدقائي, عندما لا يجرؤن على تنبيهي إلى أنني أروي لهم الحكاية نفسها التي رويتها الأسبوع الفائت. في ذلك الحين, كانت هناك في ذاكرتي قائمة وجوه معروفه و قائمة أخرى باسم كل واحد من أصحاب تلك الوجوه, و لكنني في لحظة تبادل التحية, لا أتوصل إلى المطابقة بين الوجوه و الأسماء

good read.

Nov. 25. o8

no matter how you might put it, it still does!
life sucks!

Patrick Watson - The Great Escape

Yes, you can buy me one

it's only 3,900,000€

great expectations, ...yea right !

according to the 12-years old raisa, the whatever that was suppose to happen when am 24 doesn't feel like happening !

we do have 'the' greatest expectations for ourselves, which is sometime is sad, and yes natural I believe.

I don't want just to live, brethe, not tryin' to sound deep, but I feel this is the right time to make something out of my life. UH, too frustrating !

We might be whatever people think, we might be more or even less, but we still think ordinary is dull, it's ordinary, ordinary! We want more, I know I do, and am not an optimistic person, but there's this beautiful thing in life called 'Hope' and I do believe damn it!


anyways, I guess am ok,
it's 11:20 pm, it's monday, my ex-favorite day of the week

Nizar

Intro

pumpkin, if one day
you went through these pages
of this sole book
blessed by every letter n' comma
that was once written about you
you were none, till I came
gave you the world
and turned your dust
into gold