lockers.

نحن كفرق الدرجة الثانية في دوري كرة القدم، اللا ليغا الإسبانية ربما... معروفون بين أفراد عائلاتنا، معارفنا، حارتنا ربما، لكن ليس بالقدر الذي يجعل أحدنا يقوم بالدوران حول الملعب إذا ما أحرز هدفا وحيدا... قد نكتفي بالقفز في أماكننا، قد نحتضن الحارس و قد يشبعنا صراخ الجماهير .... ونعود لمواقعنا .. نعرف أننا خاسرون لا محالة

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أود لو أعرف فقط ...كيف لأحد ما أن يعيش حياةً فارغة

كيف لكِ أن تعيشي حياةً مليئة بلاشيء؟ ...كيف تقومين بذلك؟

* el secreto de sus ojos (2009)

1594
01:31:09,464 --> 01:31:11,632
(ON ANSWERlNG MACHlNE)
Hi, it's Florence.
Leave a message.

1595
01:31:11,716 --> 01:31:12,883
Florence.

1596
01:31:13,510 --> 01:31:16,262
Florence, l'm calling
to say l'm sorry

1597
01:31:16,346 --> 01:31:18,597
you had to go through
what you're going through.

1598
01:31:18,682 --> 01:31:22,643
And Mahler's fine.
He ate pizza.

1599
01:31:24,729 --> 01:31:27,982
l'm leaving this
in your voicemail,
but it's really a letter.

1600
01:31:28,066 --> 01:31:31,110
l get so angry about
the world, you know?

1601
01:31:32,445 --> 01:31:33,571
lf l knew who
to write a letter to

1602
01:31:33,655 --> 01:31:36,365
about all the stupidity
in the world, l'd do it.

1603
01:31:39,077 --> 01:31:43,080
You're 25.
l was just 27.

1604
01:31:44,541 --> 01:31:47,918
You're brave.
Young people are brave.

1605
01:31:49,421 --> 01:31:51,672
When l was a kid,
l was a leader

1606
01:31:51,756 --> 01:31:54,008
and most of the kids
always looked up to me.

1607
01:31:55,594 --> 01:31:58,470
l thought l might go
into space, you know,
as an astronaut.

1608
01:31:58,638 --> 01:32:01,682
(CHUCKLES) l can't even
swim in the fucking pool.

1609
01:32:01,766 --> 01:32:03,601
My brother's in Vietnam.

1610
01:32:03,685 --> 01:32:06,187
We have the same parents.
l can't blame that.

1611
01:32:10,192 --> 01:32:13,861
l really love Phillip,
but l'm not supposed
to be on his bed.

1612
01:32:15,989 --> 01:32:19,200
l love my parents.
l love Mahler.

1613
01:32:20,785 --> 01:32:22,244
l miss my mom.

1614
01:32:23,455 --> 01:32:26,999
l really like you.

1615
01:32:28,126 --> 01:32:32,087
l just hate how
embarrassing it all is.
l don't understand.

1616
01:32:32,339 --> 01:32:33,714
What happened to me?

1617
01:32:34,341 --> 01:32:36,258
Where does experience go?

1618
01:32:37,219 --> 01:32:40,763
Remember Charlie Sheen
standing on his balcony
in Wall Street?

1619
01:32:40,847 --> 01:32:43,682
Did you see that movie?
Saying, "Who am l?"

1620
01:32:44,726 --> 01:32:46,810
Phillip and l used to
make so much fun of it.

1621
01:32:46,895 --> 01:32:48,979
l'm thinking, now,
it wasn't so stupid.

1622
01:32:49,981 --> 01:32:54,735
Somebody once said to me,
"Hurt people hurt people."

1623
01:32:56,655 --> 01:32:59,240
lt's kind of trite,
but it stayed with me.

1624
01:32:59,324 --> 01:33:03,786
Oh, man ! That was you,
like, a few days ago.

1625
01:33:03,870 --> 01:33:06,413
l used to have
a really good memory, too.

1626
01:33:06,498 --> 01:33:10,084
Anyway, we do. . .
l do hurt people.

1627
01:33:11,503 --> 01:33:14,171
Hurt people.

1628
01:33:16,424 --> 01:33:18,676
l think lvan and l broke up.

1629
01:33:24,224 --> 01:33:28,936
Florence, l really like you.

1630
01:33:30,355 --> 01:33:31,981
Love, Roger.

* ناس بزيت و ناس بسمنه

I was at the office, a lousy Sunday morning, flipping the newspaper and saw this orange page spread for the fourth AbuDhabi film festival ...and so on. My plan was to ditch all US productions, and try to watch as many arabic and international productions as possible.

YES, it looked way better at night unfortunately didn't get the chance, it's either me or my phone 're dead.

likes: all new films, quality of most arabic screenings, short films programs 1-2, (tayeb, khalas, yalla), the girls disappointment in (Viajo porque preciso, volto porque te amo), watching the films with the filmmakers, ...having an appetite to participate the next year(s)

dislikes: (cinema azdi), abu dhabi theatre's parking lots ..the lack of :|

* محمد رُضا

it's like the RR's daughter

* 2010 dodge challenger

if you were a poster, what would the tagline say?

"..I must've been a typical child of 68"

"dreaming Lanvin"

so damn pretty.

99 reasons why

#94: Because I like keeping my clothes on

As far as I can remember, I've always had this shadowing feeling of being unwelcomed. Even with my school friends (sad, I know) but could be because am self conscious, tres self conscious!

Talking is intimate, I'm not an intimate person. It always feels like taking off my clothes. Liberating, I admit but a lot uncomfortable. Especially if you're in the wrong crowd.

Not to give anyone the credit, but I really stopped pouring trust into people, generally speaking. I can say that my trust list is somehow "limited."

Strange thing is, I find comfort talking to complete strangers, no names just aliases. That's actually why I'm keeping a twitter account ...shhhhh

I do want to change, ______________________help? ...naah, I'm growing ..up ...maybe, learning something. It takes time, just like everything else.

Brrrrr ...I think I just took off my shirt.

i like you

their expiration date

do you still think about that green olives jar you bought four months ago, ...and that big monster still hides under your bed?

the year of noodles

I'm 22. I not so long ago, ended a four year old relationship. I'll turn 23 soon. I lost everything, I have no friends ...none, really. I talk a lot. I'm annoying, why? Why am I annoying? Lol, 'cause I talk a lot. Do you know what you can do with alotta dough and sugar? Baking! I baked a lot ... I baked till I the sun came up ... around 5:40 am. How old are you? Do you live in a big house ...or? Yeh? ...No no no, I'm not selling. I just bake for myself. A lot?? I dunno, just got sick of eating the same things everyday, so I'm just trying new things. I work at this bakery slash coffee place, ..you should come check it out. I also cook too you know. ...Yesterday I baked alotta of doughnuts and muffins. My place smells good.

How do people get over things ...How ...umm, urghhh. So what's for dinner?

99 reasons why:

#99: Because I'm Anthony Hopkins

My first encounter with Sir Hopkins was back in the 90s. He was Hannibal Lector. I was ..Myself. Yup, I was fascinated by the movie that every time I watched it, was as if I'm watching it for the first time. Mostly, I liked Jodi Foster's character, very intriguing.

Recently, I watched a number of interviews. And was startled by how much he reminds me of myself. The placid/curious look in his eyes. That awful sense of humor. His sense of belonging. All me.

I don't really like him. I'm sure he's nice though.

I don't steal things.

You meet people. They remind you of a favorite thing. A something. They remind you of a dream you had before. A long time before you became their nightmare.

I'm sleep deprived. I'd settle for a nightmare.

I would.

Raisa M. M.

Creep _______radiohead

hypoglycemia

1. i want to toughen up.
2. i have to toughen up.
3. i will toughen up.

________gotta eat

more carbs.

I would love to go,

anyone else joining?

an education.

“Everyone in the country is in therapy and spending all their money on self-help books so their little internal voice will be able to say, ‘I am good and I am OK.’… If you’re going to believe all the stuff about positive thinking and self-actualization, that we affect our environment by the way we think about ourselves, do you want a better example than Kanye West? F*ck Tony Robbins. Kanye West should have infomercials.” Jon Brion

__________________
jon brion: one of the good things in life .
kanye west: an artistic narcissist ass, with a good taste in clothes.
tony robbins: another blah blah self-help personality.

coldplay- strawberry swing

Coldplay- strawberry swing from Argumente on Vimeo.

هي لا تحبكَ أنت

يُعجبها مجازُك

أنتَ شاعرُها

/ وهذا كل ما في الأمر

محمود دويش

minor tragedy: I'm out of coffee.

"un film de Pedro Almodovar"

جملة ستظهر لك في وسط شاشة لا سوداء كما هي العادة, بل زاهية الألوان, شاشة مبهرجة أقرب لمسرح دمى متحركة أو حتى كرّاس رسم يعود لطفل لم يتجاوز الخمس سنوات, ترافقها عادة (إن لم يكن دوماً) موسيقى لاتينية ستشد انتباهك لا محالة. هي جملة تترك (و ستترك دوماً) لدي شعوراً لا تخلّفه العديد من الجُمل الإفتتاحية للأفلام. لأسباب عديدة. أجد في أفلام بيدرو شيئاً يميزه عن العديدين, رغم تناوله (الدائم) للكثير من المواضيع التي قد لا أجد عادة سهولة في هضمها و منها الشذوذ الجنسي و مشاهد العريّ المسهبه, لكني رغم كل شي أجد كماً كبيراً من الشاعرية في طرحه لتلك المواضيع و غيرها

منذ فترة قريبة حظيت بفرصة مشاهدة آخر أعمال ألمودوفار "لوس أبرازوس روتوس" أو عناقات مكسورة. رغم محاولاتي الفاشلة بعدم الإقتراب من أي مقالات أو مراجعات عن الفلم إلا أنني قرأت عدداً منها لكن بعد مشاهدتي للفلم لم أجد الصلة بين تلك المقالات و الفلم الذي شاهدته للتو. لسبب أو لآخر لم تفضِ أي مقالة بالكثير. أتذكر منها أن الكاتب قال أن الفلم كان يمثل امتنان بيدرو لفن السينما بل شبه الفلم بقصة الحب القديمة التي تجمع الاثنين, بيدرو و السينما, خصوصاً لمن تابع أفلام بيدرو سيلاحظ وجوهاً نسائية كثيرة يختارها المخرج لتظهر في أفلامه دائماً, ما عزّز لدي هذه الفكرة فقد كان ذلك كنوع من الشكر (ربما) أو العرفان لهن

كيف سيكون عالمك لو فقدت الرؤية؟ هل سيكون بقاءك على قيد الحياة دون بصر "حياه"؟ أعرف الاجابة عن هذا السؤال و أعرف سرب التفاؤل الذي سيغطي تماماً على سؤالي, و لكني و رغم اعترافي بسطحيتي ناحية الموضوع فأنا للآن لا أعرف كيف يتأقلم الإنسان مع هكذا خسارة, (شجاعه لا أمتلكها) كوني كائنٌ مرئي يتمحور عالمه حول القراءة و الرسم و السينما و الوجوه و المشاوير الغير معنونه و أمور كثيرة أخرى لها علاقة بقناعاتي. الشخصية الرئيسية هنا في الفلم مخرج سينمائي يفقد بصره في حادث سيارة, و بمساعدة صديقة له يتمكن ببطئ من معايشة وضعه. لا أعلم لمَ شككت في أنه أعمى, حتى بعد نهاية الفلم خُـيِّل إلي أنه ابتكر العمى ليهرب من شيء أو أحد ما, كان وجهه المريب يدفعني للتساؤل

بداية هذا الفلم اختلفت قليلاً عما تعودته في أفلام بيدرو. حيث يبدأ الفلم بموسيقى هادئة و مشهد افتتاحي منظّم لوجوه كثيرة تظهر ثم تختفي أمام كاميرا في ما يشبه تجارب الأداء (الكاستنج) لترى بعد ذلك وجهاً مألوفاً, بطلة القصة "لينا" أو بينيلوبي كروز, تعود لتختفي مرة أخرى حتى تتذكرها احدى شخصيات القصة و كمعظم أفلام ألمودوفار عليك المحافظة على ذاكرة عريضة لتربط شريط الأحداث و الشخصيات لأنها غالباً ما تأتي مبعثرة ما بين سنوات مضت و شخصيات تظهر ثم تختفي. لا أريد الخوض في تفاصيل قصة الفلم, لأنها من القصص التي لا تلخّص بكلمات مفهومة و إن استطعت فلن تتمكن من ذلك دون شرح و هذا الشرح سيعبث بمشاهدتك للفلم لاحقاً

قد لا أبالغ إن قلت أنني طوّرت رد فعل "بافلوفي" على أفلام ألمودوفار, و أرجو ألا يتبادر لذهنك سيلٌ من اللعاب! بل هو توقع مسبق بعمل فني متكامل من نواحٍ عديدة, أعترف أن عناقات مكسورة لم يكن بقوة "تحدّث معها" أو "كل شيء عن أمي" إلا آنه فلم يستحق المشاهده خصوصاً لمخرج قليل التواجد كألمودوفار

لابد أن أعترف أن لـ بيدرو أحياناً "شطحات" تذكرني دائماً بمسلسلات الدراما الاتينية الطويلة, تلك المشاهد حين يكتشف البطل أن أباه الحقيقي هو عدوه اللدود الذي لازال يحب أمه ..أو تلك المشاهد التي لا أجد لها وصفاً منصفاً سوى لملئ الدقائق, لا أدري

عناقات مكسورة كان دراما رومنسية (إن صح التعبير) محبوكة, دون التأكيد على أنني استمتعت (جداً) بمشاهدته

Eternal Sunshine.

Random thoughts
for Valentine's Day, 2010

Today is a holiday invented
by greeting card companies

to make people
feel like crap.

I ditched work today
for good.

Took the car to Abu Dhabi.
I didn't bother to tell anybody.

Just packed. Said good bye to mom,
and left.

I don't know why.

Aaah!
I'm not an impulsive person.

I guess I just woke up
in a funk this morning. This year.

I gotta buy a new pair of shoes.

It's goddamn freezing on this beach.

Beach walk in February.
Brilliant, Raisa.

So many drafts. So many.

Don't remember writing that much.

It appears this is
my hundred something entry.

Friends are overrated.

They're just people who know what cup size you are.

If only I could
meet someone new.

I guess my chances of that happening
are somewhat diminished,

Seeing that I'm a cautious,
Self-obsessed person,
Who is bored with people.

Maybe I should
get back together with him.

He was nice.
Nice? ________eek!

Well. He loved me.

Why do I fall in love
with every man I see...

who shows me
the least bit of attention?

pants and strawberry jam.

Home alone,

I walked

.

.

.

.

I walked some more

Another 10 meters

I'm finally in

the kitchen

I gulped some water

my slipper on strawberry jam

Sticky

Sticky

Sticky steps

On my stomach

I laid on the sofa

I thought someone 'll beak my neck

I bent my knees, up

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

Strawberry jam dripped

.

Oh

there's nobody home

none 'll break me

.

Strawberry jam

dripped

on my ass

.

.

.

be damned

I'm out of clean laundry.

Never thought about it, but I'd say melancholy.

It's less colorful than myself, but stoic, expected in a way, and endurable by some people :)

__full time midgets.

I just deleted five contacts off my messenger. most of whom were my fragile tie (so to speak) to something I thought was "home."

in the memory of a place

There are love affairs like this; they thrive on absence and distance. As long as one is elsewhere, one can curse the separation and sincerely believe that one need only to get together again to be happy. Once the couple is together, the scales falls from one's eyes. Distance preserves love, abolish distance and you run the risk of abolishing love.

Origins: A Memoir (Amin Maalouf)

Well, it's complicated.

I have a confession to make: I love this expression.

It's a state, that is located somewhere in my cerebral hemisphere, between "it's none of your business" county and "sideways" town. I never mention it to anybody, rarely visited. Nonetheless, it's a delight.

For the past couple of months, my brain was occupied. Things I used to do just to keep my self busy, are now haunted with the things I'm running off from. How do you get you mind off something? I can't seem to master that.

The movie was kinda good. Alec Baldwin is chubby and lovable, SO lovable.

guilty plea.

sometimes you act like a total kid, a complete idiot.

I'm the kid and I'm the idiot, where do I stand now?

I think I'm going mad.