Your pencils are creating a health hazard. I could fall and pierce an organ.

get a fake tattoo. (April 15)

we used black henna and it actually worked,

i was thinking more like Angelina Jolie kind of tattos,

but turns out that it's not that easy :D

so i did the fernando torres's nine, on my left shoulder

a question,

is it suppose to be itchy? 'cause it is :/

cook something Mexican. (April 17)
it was friday, and i was in the mood,
so the first thing to do before you cook anything

is actually figuring out what to cook,

i spent about an hour, looking through mexican recipes,
and boy, do they love meat and chillies!

ok, finally chose, "enchilada"

umm ..it's like, really spicey rolls covered in sauce and cheese

really easy to make, and don't taste bad either

it came out somehing like this:

do a selfportrait. (April 19)

here's how it's done:

a) yank off, gently, a big mirror off the wall,
b) sit tight, and keep one expression on,
c) mess up the dimensions,
d) and you're done !

i did it on a proximately big board paper,
and i kind of messed it up,the eyes are displaced,
the face frame just looks wrong,
didn't quite like the outcome,
and i wouldve posted it except i didn't wanna scare people off :D

act happy for a whole day. (...)
i must've been drunk when i thought of this :/
not gonna happen.

visit the clinic. (April 16)
this one is related to somethings in my head,
i had access to ALOTTA of medical documents that
i started seeing things,
so i went there, got cancelled,
and you'd think you'll get the cancelation call, ..didn't happen.

#5 (tricycle)

ok, here's the thing
for someone who can't actually ride a bicycle, hates unstable grounds, and who's balance challanged,
skateboard isn't their best friend

the whole skate board "experience" was fun, i fell alot, and by alot, i mean every time i remember that am on a moving board, that i can't actually pull the breaks, that am falling no matter what,

anyways, i kept falling, ..falling and falling! now i can ride it without falling off which is quite an achievement,maybe next time we'll try the back flip q:


and it's ok to scream, laugh, and scream again!
one last thing, it's really fun once you get the hang of it,once you get the hang of it! :D

#1 (1o things I hate about Raisa.)

for your information, I dug deep.

1. my precocious negativity. like a safety net.
2. lack of confidence. i honestly don't know where did i got from, too much estrogen?
3. the angry me. i wouldn't want to be around myself at that state :/
4. my random stupidity. ..umm
5. my mood. #! @$%^&*()
6. stubborness. i always can strach it, no matter how long you'd go. completely hate it!
7. hesitancy. yes, no, ..yes again!
8. my outstanding math skills. it'll blow your mind away :D
9. my short term memory system. always forgets, always!
10. over-doing things that aren't worth it. over think, over analyze, ..over everything!

I don't think I'll ever change, I tried god knows, but sometimes,
somethings are just stuck with you

and screw it, I love myself :D

*

she made me do it !

ten things, eleven days.
sometimes you just need a push,

1. write 1o things i hate about myself. (April 13)
2. get a fake tatto.(April 15)
3. cook something Mexican. (April 17)
4. do a selfportrait.(April 19)
5. skateboard, learn how to. (April 16)
6. watch a foreign movie with no subtitle.
7. act happy for a whole day.
8. call her.
9. spend a day out with my nephews.
10. visit the clinic. (April 16)

The Whole Blah Damn Thing.

"Life is just blah, blah, blah. You hope for blah. And sometimes you find it. But mostly it is blah. And waiting for blah. And hoping you are right about the blah's you made and then just when you think you have the whole blah damned thing figured out and you are surrounded by the ones you blah death shows up. And blah blah blah."

( you saved my life in Korea )

aside from the gay picture, and the irrelevant title, never mind where this am about to say come from .. umm, here it goes ..I used to be 'friends' with my sister, we shared so many things, materially and spiritually wise, now I feel like we're strangers, sometimes and not always, I feel like I have to agree with her just not to argue, she's into some stupid, dumb, dumb things, and it's ok but it feels like these stupid things are all there is, I remember telling her that I felt she was a complete "تافهه " and she went like "yes I know I am" and with that look on her face, she wasn't like umm.. messing around, I was just disappointed to say the least, at how everything tuned out,


would it be sad to miss that naive girl? 'cause I sort of do sometimes, I miss my lil stupid pigeon, but I think people change at some point, am not the same person I used to be back in high school, it still me but not wholy me, and neither she is, am just tiered of fetching her everywhere, I know she's been through some crappy friendships, disappointments, but that's not an excuse or a reason, ya hearing me pigeon.. it ..is ..NOT! :/


I hope she doesn't find her way here :p but if you did, I do love you and you know I'd adopt you if I had to, and my door is always open if you needed to knock, well ..as well as my closet if you felt like stealing anything ;) .. am still mad at the world for this, but the world can vete al infierno!


I can get myself together pretty easily, am good at lying telling myself everything's gonna be "ok," whatever this ok is, it's not optimisticism but rather peacefulness ..maybe, anyways ..that's enough for today :)

Tuesday, 3:03 am
Jan 13, 09

Nov. 25. o8

no matter how you might put it, it still does!
life sucks!

the BLAH !

umm...
today is the 5th Sept. not a special day I know, I think I came to know some people a lil more. Not an exciting thing but I understood their stupid attitude :)

con, consortium, I know in spanish y latin 'con' means together, the rest is related I guess !
family can be be real pain if they wanted to, out of helping you and thinking what is best for you in life and all, which maybe true if they just gave you the choice to decide, pfff.. they don't !

ever heard of the AP five cards? ..better, they're suppose to boost the 'writer' or storyteller in you, they're suppose to be short, vivide, and represent pieces of you, or something.

I just finishe a huge cup of Joe's cousin, cappuccino that is ! that's equal to a hug for me, which reminds me, I have'nt had a hug in a while now, yea it's pretty stupid ..yo se :) !

pronto,
11:03 pm

Yesterday, June 19, o8

yesterday was my international day of cleaning, I went over my closet and did the laundrey .. I cleaned the helluva my bathroom ! .. I was hopeing to hit the beach, because the weather was screaming 'BEACH' !! .. didn't go, I just read more GG Marquez .. umm .. I was in a weidly good mood, ..this should be about it ..almost,




Wembeldon tournament is still on, I was going through the newspaper, and there was his article about Murray, Inglaterra's last hope ! ..no mention of Nadal, however he's making his was to kick some you know whom ass ; )




this on I took from the backyard door .. if you there you'd feel the whole yellow sky! Really weird
but it was beautiful, yea .. there was this wedding the same day, yesterday I mean ..